Never shall I forget that night, the first night in camp, that turned my life into one long night seven times sealed.
It was like a page torn from a book
Like a dream in the first hours of dawn
We felt the abyss opening beneath us
We were all condemned to the same fate- still unknown
Finally, our illusions devoured us
Consumed us
I was face to face with the angel of death
I don’t know how I survived
Never shall I forget that smoke.
Fire! I see a fire! I see a fire!
We saw the flames rising from a tall chimney against a black sky
Fire! I see a fire!
Jews look! Look at the fire! Look at the flames!
Hunger-Thirst-Fear-Selection-Fire-Chimney
And then, there was nothing, only the darkness of night
Never shall I forget the small faces of the children whose bodies I saw transformed into smoke under a silent sky.
Wide, dreamy eyes
Divine suffering
The children and their fear
He caused thousands of children to burn in His mass graves
Yes, I did see this, with my own eyes.
Children being thrown into the flames
Surely, it was a dream
Never shall I forget those flames that consumed my faith forever.
And from within me, I heard a voice
Don’t lose faith in yourself!
Yet I did
I was afraid
Blessed be G-ds name?
Why? But why would I bless him?
Every fiber in me rebelled
In the beginning, there was faith- which is childish; trust-which is vain, and illusion-which is dangerous
No more faith
No more strength
Never shall I forget the nocturnal silence that deprived me for all eternity of the desire to live. To the last moment, people clung to hope
We were withered trees in the heart of the desert
Veiled by despair
My soul had been invaded-devoured-by a black flame
I was nothing but a body
A Corpse contemplating me
The look in his eyes as he gazed at me will never leave me
Never shall I forget those moments that murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to ashes.
One more stab to the heart, one more reason to hate. One less reason to live
I heard the pounding of my heart Beating in my ears
The morning star shone in the sky
I was nothing but ashes now
Never shall I forget those things, even were I condemned to live as long as God Himself.
Never
It was like a page torn from a book
Like a dream in the first hours of dawn
We felt the abyss opening beneath us
We were all condemned to the same fate- still unknown
Finally, our illusions devoured us
Consumed us
I was face to face with the angel of death
I don’t know how I survived
Never shall I forget that smoke.
Fire! I see a fire! I see a fire!
We saw the flames rising from a tall chimney against a black sky
Fire! I see a fire!
Jews look! Look at the fire! Look at the flames!
Hunger-Thirst-Fear-Selection-Fire-Chimney
And then, there was nothing, only the darkness of night
Never shall I forget the small faces of the children whose bodies I saw transformed into smoke under a silent sky.
Wide, dreamy eyes
Divine suffering
The children and their fear
He caused thousands of children to burn in His mass graves
Yes, I did see this, with my own eyes.
Children being thrown into the flames
Surely, it was a dream
Never shall I forget those flames that consumed my faith forever.
And from within me, I heard a voice
Don’t lose faith in yourself!
Yet I did
I was afraid
Blessed be G-ds name?
Why? But why would I bless him?
Every fiber in me rebelled
In the beginning, there was faith- which is childish; trust-which is vain, and illusion-which is dangerous
No more faith
No more strength
Never shall I forget the nocturnal silence that deprived me for all eternity of the desire to live. To the last moment, people clung to hope
We were withered trees in the heart of the desert
Veiled by despair
My soul had been invaded-devoured-by a black flame
I was nothing but a body
A Corpse contemplating me
The look in his eyes as he gazed at me will never leave me
Never shall I forget those moments that murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to ashes.
One more stab to the heart, one more reason to hate. One less reason to live
I heard the pounding of my heart Beating in my ears
The morning star shone in the sky
I was nothing but ashes now
Never shall I forget those things, even were I condemned to live as long as God Himself.
Never
I really liked how you put one part in bold and below it responded to it! Even if you just read the bolded parts, you're left thinking about how cruel it really was to survive that and to have the memories of it. after reading Night, seeing the films, and going to the Museum, I've been wondering what fate would've been better, to die in the camps, or to live but forever have those memories haunting you. I think surviving the Holocaust is a blessing and a curse. It's a blessing because you get to restart your life, and your story can be heard to help prevent this from ever happening again. But it's a curse, because you went through such cruel things and saw such cruel things that you will never be able to forget, and most people lost family and friends that they will always remember and miss. Overall you had a very well written and powerful poem! Great work!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Malaysia! I agree with what you said about surviving the holocaust is a blessing and a curse. I think that is really interesting.
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ReplyDeleteOf course, I love your poem. But here, I am going to say exactly why. First, your formatting and choice to use Elie's poem as a foundation and adding to it yourself is quite incredible. Second, the word choice and feeling that you are reading between his lines is stirring and compelling. Lastly, the message you send through your words, the power and sadness, the remembrance and sorrow, is amazing. Your words sound like they come from someone far older than you. Overall, this is remarkable.
Thank you so much Ava! once again, your comment is written better than my post
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